Sometimes I wish I could lay with you either under the stars or in complete silence. While staring into your dancing eyes but wishing isn't the same as when you are here, next to me. The smell of your green sweatshirt on the blue chair that was once on a lone before it became mine.
The Idea of you seems Close
Messy bed hair, a draping arm around me, sounds perfect. It sounds even better; when I stir in the morning. Starting each day with a smile on while the alarm goes off and you always pull me deeper in the bed a little closer then I was before."Where do you think you are going? My alarm never went off, so stay here".
The Idea of you seems Close
I would turn over and look into those optimistic eyes and say, "I could stay longer but I want to miss you awhile in the morning.Pushing your arm off and pulling the duvet off to get up. Somehow you would grab me back to bed again. Sleepy eyes and a smile on your face, "You had your miss me moment and now it's over.Did you miss me excessively?"
The Idea of you seems Close
I would laugh a little harder then I should, "Not one bit. I didn't get an chance to miss you enough to know." Throwing a wink back at you, as I start to leave again. I hear a quiet long whistle, that's never easy to forget. "You look better in bed then moving around to start a day that doesn't need to be started quiet yet".
The Idea of you seems Close
Walking into the kitchen, I see you, where you stood on the back deck. Grabbing my coffee mug off the counter top and walking out to you seem to be normal to me, until I knew it wasn't anymore.You would turn to your left and say ," Our dreams are endless when we are together on this foundation".Enjoying each morning with the same start was too perfect to have forever. Standing side by side each morning was by far more then any fancy dinner for two. Morning forehead kisses were slow as we dance together with the sound of the world is coming alive as we move around.
The Idea of you Seems Close
I see you more than I should, when you are gone. You keep showing up in places where, we had moments that were either once in a blue moon or a common recurrence. During the daylight seems a little easier than other hours. Hearing your footsteps through the house coming closer, would bring a smile or two just as they once would. You would look perfectly "Raw" with a sweet smile that makes want you a little more.
The Idea of you Seems close
On a day that I missed you excessively there was a note in a mail. Seeing a postcard between the bills seemed to be a urgent matter to look at first.On the other side it said,"Seeing you around here. Makes me want to be closer to you ,when I am there".
Rubbing my hand over the written words with my eyes closed, I can see you saying those words in front of me. The idea of you, being close makes my heart ache with your words in my hands. Wishing for more of those moments together with endless winking and slow dances in the backyard.
The Idea of you seems Close
When you left sixty-two days ago and you don't come home for another sixty days.Some days it feels as if each day gets longer and time slows down until I go through the mail.There is always a note reminding me , why I fell in love with you in the first place.
Always keeping me intrigued in anything you say with few words.
The Idea of you seems Close
For two weeks straight, you have me wrapped your finger like a novelist in the old days.The first postcard Monday: "Remember when you said, don't eat to much healthy junk food.(By the way junk food is healthy if you only eat it as a meal besides dessert, just saying) Well I..."
I went through the mail twice to find out if there is more to this synopsis.
Not until the third day Wednesday: you wrote: "I only had a piece of a whole cake; mind you it was carrot cake, a piece of steak and one whole sweet potato. By the way, if you are shaking your head now just wait until I tell you..."
Friday comes along and the postcard said,
"Never ride an elephant backwards when it's running for life, there's nothing to hold on to besides the..
P.s I am alive and well just came back from a massage with.."
I was laughing until you had to tell me, you had a massage.
Monday come back along you wrote:
" Life advice from me : When someone says don't go in a dark cave without flashlight , don't by all means don't because I did..."
I though for two days, I should be concerned for you until the follow Wednesday.
"One might might run out a cave and into a hole with water flowing underneath you and something licking your face."
P.S : Don't saying anything I know, I should listen... I am fine but I wouldn't want you to kiss me anytime soon.. Tiger licked me and gave that massage in some painful places..
On Friday night with a glass if wine I read the note
"If you are wondering why you love me it's because you never know, what will come out of my mouth and anything can happen when I am around any one....
...You can only imagine that you can say things are never dull..
I am bring home a Bambi.. Don't worry I will take care of him.
The idea of you seems Close
Getting home Monday afternoon there was a caution sign and a notice sign and it say's: Your husbands home and Bambi is too.. come find us.. we are in the backyard..."From that moment I knew why I will never walk away from you, making our lives into a discovery of endless adventures into the unknown of this time called Life.
